Dear the Older Guy... You were a weird one, someone I never thought I’d fall for. I ended up being so obsessed with you, checking my phone 24/7 to see if you texted me and praying that you’d bring me on another date. Pathetic right? Lol. I fell hard for you on our first date as we talked about our past heartbreaks while sipping cocktails. I don’t know why but I expected you to know girls really well?? Maybe because you were older .. you didn’t have a clue did you? You ended up making me feel really stupid for making an effort with you. It was hard not replying to you, but I knew myself you weren’t for me. I may have been vulnerable at the time, but I knew I deserved better.. Thank you for making me realize that.
Dear the Guy Who Played Me... I look back and laugh. I laugh at how everything you said and did was something you say and do to win every girl over. Man was I stupid then.. You were the first guy I ever properly fell for, maybe it was your accent I don’t know. I was so obsessed with you, woah. We never really ended or began if that makes sense…I just had to pretend like I didn’t know you even though you texted me everyday and came to my house. It took me a long, long time to get over you. I think when I knew i was done with you was when you tried chatting me up in the pub and I felt nothing. You texted me asking me to come over and not for one second did I consider it. Thank you for making me realize that I have so much more to offer than just my body.
Dear the Big Disappointment... Awh, how I miss you. You were different from any boy I’d ever been with. As much as you hurt me, I’ll always remember how you helped me escape. I don’t know what it was about you that I liked so much ?? Maybe it was everything. Even the stupid way you wore your socks... You made me feel really stupid when we ended like I was stupid for still caring about you.. why did you do that? Maybe it was because you were never really mine and I was never really yours. I think what hurt most was, we never really ended you just never texted.. I think about you from time to time, wondering if you’re happy. If I’m honest, I hope you are. As much as I hated you for what you did, I think you helped me in a way. I needed you then, I was lost, giving up on the hope of finding “the one”. You helped me because you made me feel so good and I’ll never settle for anything less than that. Thank you for all the laughs and cheese toasties.
Dear the Right Guy, Wrong Time... Awh you were a good one, the one I always wondered about. I felt like I never really deserved you. At the time we got together my life was a mess. I was only getting used to being single and dealing with players. You were different, you never played me. I feel in some ways, I played you.. I was so worried about falling for someone and getting played that I did whatever I could not to get hurt. In the end I hurt you. It was nice seeing you a while back, you’re still as lovely as ever. We are so not suited though, woah.. I feel like if we went out with each other then, we’d hate each other now. I think we both know that. I hope you find that special someone because you deserve it. I hope you know it was never you that was the problem, it was me. Thank you for being so good to me.
Dear the First Boyfriend... We never talk, but I do hope you’re doing good. You were my best friend at one point. I went through my bad brow stages and brassy hair with you.( I’m sorry) I loved your family so much and that was the hardest part of letting you go. The spark was gone and we were growing apart. I will always wish the best for you and hope that you find someone to love. Are you still eating all that cereal? I think you loved cereal more than you loved me (I was a psycho so it's understandable). Thank you for your friendship and for never letting me win in Mario kart. Dear Last Boyfriend... I don’t like talking about this more because it was so messy. We really rushed into things didn’t we? It made it hard for us to keep the spark alive... I hope you don’t take it personal about me not wanting to be on talking terms with you. It’s not that I hate you, it’s just too hard. We had a lot of good times together but I think we both knew it was never going to work. We tried though. You have a really big heart but there is a lot you need to work on before you find someone else to love. I’m sorry I gave up on you, I was starting to lose myself and I hope you understand that. Thank you for all the midnight munchies and games of monopoly. To All The Boys I’ve Ever Loved, thank you...